Saturday, April 25, 2009

Emotionally Attached...

I think that one of the hardest things about being a girl and waiting for that "perfect guy" to come along, is not falling for the first guy that shows interest in you. I always told myself that I would never let my heart be taken by someone, unless I knew that that person was worth it. I would never, EVER become emotionally attached to someone until they showed the same feelings toward me. I convinced myself that I would be strong and not fully give in to the feelings that I felt, and that I would not be hurt if it didn't work out in the end. Oh how foolish my young heart is! I'm a teenage girl, of course I'm going to give into those feelings and become somewhat attached to that person. But, since I'm a teenage girl, I'm also going to be blinded by the nice things he says, and the things he does, and how funny, and cute, and sweet he is. I'm not going to remember my friends advice, or heed the warning signs, because I'm too caught up in this, and in the end, I do get hurt.

It has taken me sometime to realize this, and even longer to fully embrace it (I'm still kind of working on it). I didn't want to admit to myself that I was wrong, and that I let my heart go too far, and that my emotions got too mixed up. I wanted to believe that he felt the same way towards me that I felt towards him. I told myself that even though he didn't actually verbalize it, he still liked me...but it wasn't true.

I heard once that people call it "falling" in love, because when you're falling, you can't really stop yourself, you don't really know whats going on, and when you hit the ground it hurts. I think that's a funny way to look at it, but don't really agree. I think that when the one God has set aside for you comes along, that your "fall" will be graceful and you wont hit the ground because your one catch you. Right now, in this "waiting area" I'm thankful that I have a Lord and Savior that, when I "fall" for the wrong guy, will catch me in His loving arms.

1 comment:

A Young Lady In Waiting said...

This is something I learned early this year/late last year. A guy was nice and sweet said all the right things. He "liked" me but was just playing with my emotions (and most of my friends at the same time). I fell hard for him. A real charmer bad boy in one. A huge mistake. thankfully my pastor saw what he was going for and told my father who told me. So in the end I had my father and pastor standing between me and more heart ache. Thankfully it never went beyond sweet talking and him making eyes at me. Its so hard to guard your heart but so so important. I was this close to "falling in love" and not being able to save my full heart for my husband. Anyways I just wanted to share that with you.